3 posts tagged “sad”

Today I got to talk to an old friend that I do not get to talk to very often. It was nice to talk to him. I like to hear what he has been doing because it makes me feel more connected even though we are several states apart. He had more new things to talk about than I did. I basically said that things are going pretty much the same for me - I am still working - I have another sinus allergy cold thing going on (I get them at least 3 times a year) - I still live the same place - I still have the same friends - I still am single - etc. etc. etc.

As you may have guessed, after talking to him I felt kind of lame because I did not have anything exciting to talk about, like his first solo fight in a helicopter (he has been taking lessons). He has a girlfriend right now and I am single ( that one bothers me in more ways than one but that is for another post someday, or not).

So I was kind of feeling a little blue as I was driving home (his phone call had caught me waiting at Walgreen's for a prescription to be filled). I started thinking about all the things I have not done in the past and started feeling like the future is going to full of missed opportunities too. The more I thought about that the more I got angry with my self. I was already writing off the future as if it was the past, when all I can really do is live in the present. I can have plans and dreams but I also need to live one day at a time, not skip over them as if they are not valuable. Each day is valuable simply for the fact that they are one more day I got to live, there are plenty of people that don't get to live as long as I have (not to say that I am old, but that is the point, I am not old and yet compared to some people my life is long)

So I think I have sufficiently scolded myself for the night and I am going to take some of my new meds for my redundant sinus/head cold thing, and get to bed so that I can hopefully wake up to another day of living.

Have you ever noticed that watching a sad tv show, or movie, or even reading a sad book, can sometimes make you feel better. Maybe this only works if it is sad enough to make you cry. I do not know if it would work if you only mildly saddened but do not cry. Maybe it is the release of pent up emotions that we do not realize we are bottling up, or maybe it is some kind of shift in neuro-chemicals in our bodies, or maybe it is just the release of daily tension by being so immersed in the story.

Well that is my little quizzical thought of the day, prompted by how I felt after watching a sad television show.

Still working hard as the foreman on the job so need to get my rest, by for now, hope my neighbors are fairing well.

Recently I have been going through my pictures and putting some on Flickr. Mixed in among my scenery and family photos there are pictures of pets. Some of the pets are personal pets, some are fosters, some are living and some are passed. Well seeing all the many different pets I have loved in my life has not helped my mood any. I miss many of the pets even the fosters that got homes (I still miss them). To top things off I have been seeing a dang Pedigree commercial that discusses the rate of animals not being adopted over the rate of those being left behind. The dog they use in the commercial is gorgeous and I ache at the thought that it might not get a home. (Yes I do know that, that particular dog is an 'actor' so to speak). They do a very good job of 'yanking' not just tugging on the heart strings.

Also I have another court appearance on Tuesday the 5th about my current dealings with the local authorities about my animals [a long story that I just do not feeling going over or even linking to right now]

yeah feeling low right now